Having to Work in the Apocalypse

Category: Searching

  • Day 85, 86: the weekend

    I ain’t doin shit for job hunting on the weekend. I decided that. Usually I work my ass off even on the weekends but honestly i’m so tired. I’m spending time with my partner’s family, and it’s gonna be fun in the sun. My therapist also told me to tell you that I have money…

  • Day 84: Mad.

    Lmao. I had a conversation with someone yesterday that got my jimmies rustled. We were talking about our approaches to art and I was saying “Hey, you know, I stopped being so hard on myself and I’m letting myself create with a lot less pressure, I feel like my art’s gotten better because I’m not…

  • Day 83: Waiting.

    Lmao. So my interviews got delayed. Not canceled! But bureacracy takes its toll. I have found a bunch of stock photos of women waiting impatiently. They are all me. I’m in sort of an up mood today, very restless, very impatient. I feel disappointed, and like held back by the industry. I don’t want to…

  • Day 81: Interviews this week

    The last time I had an interview I over-prepared for it. I also ultimately got rejected from the job. I spent days on my interview in preparation, writing down so many answers and potential STAR situations I could think of and I never got to use them all because the interview process never finished. This…

  • Day 78, 79 and 80: good golly miss molly

    I’ve been pretty depressed the last two days. I’ve not intended on making this a super duper complainy blog but the last two days have been difficult. I’ve had this anger in my core that I’ve had a hard time shaking. It’s like not even a white hot anger, it’s cold. It’s heavy. It’s like…

  • Day 77: maybe an individual contributor role is fine

    It’s been 77 earth days. I am so tired. I streamed today and did some portfolio reviews which was nice but also exhausting. But something I realized was that I have this inaccessible rage in me. I can sense it, it bubbles up to awareness sometimes but I can’t seem to express it. I know…

  • Day 76: A Migraine and World Otter Day

    Day 76: A Migraine and World Otter Day

    I went to bed with a migraine last night and only woke up around 11 AM, which means I lost a lot of the morning to not being awake. I did some studies from photos for World Otter Day. I haven’t even opened Linkedin today. I guess I can open it now. Okay, I applied…

  • Day 75: Rejected Again

    Day 75: Rejected Again

    It’s been about 75 days since I was laid off from my last role. I’ve been sending emails to prospective employers, and applications into the abyss it seems. Honestly it’s no wonder that I’ve started to have a dependency on sitting out on the balcony and staring into the void by myself. I got an…